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Late 2009 I lost my grandmother on my dad's side. Then late 2010 I lose a cousin to breast cancer and an old acquaintance of mine was found hanging from a tree. Early 2011 that cousin's brother is diagnosed with a different kind of cancer and died a week later. Then late 2011 I lost my aunt (the two cousin's mother) to a disease, a good friend to suicide (on christmas), another friend's mother, and a beloved family pet. Then in January of 2011 another aunt finds cancerous lumps in both of her breasts, we lose another pet, and another family member dies. To top all of that off my grandfather on my dad's side almost dies two times in 2011 and then has open heart surgery in 2012 along with my mother going to the hospital 5 times within two months because the doctors keep messing up and her condition keeps getting worse and my one friend's condition kept getting worse instead of better and she had to go to the hospital numerous times. This is after the friend already had to drop out of our school to be home schooled because of her condition back in 2009-2010.

Would be be too much to ask Fate to KNOCK IT OFF for a little while? It's seriously starting to effect me. I mean, seriously, I had a dream about a miscarriage, then one about a murder, one about a suicide, one about myself getting almost killed 5 times, and about a horrible car crash all in one week! This is too much depression, and I'm not only saying this for myself but everyone in my family who keeps having people drop off one after the other and my friends. It doesn't help that another cousin of mine is currently over seas for the war because he's in the army. I just... I keep worrying. The death runs in 3s rule has always proved true for my family, if one family friend died then two more did two and same with family members (it'd always follow which side of the family they were on). Another strange occurrence that has never failed our family is that if we dream of a death (natural death or by disease) then someone in the family (immediate aunts/uncles, cousins...) is proven to be pregnant (or their female other is pregnant for the guys) and if we dream of birth then someone dies. It's always been the females having the dreams and it has never failed, it's how all the females know another is pregnant in our family before even she herself does sometimes... Lately, though, my mom has had a dream about one of her sisters being pregnant only a week ago, so we're worried since the death one is never easy to product and she's worrying that it could be grandpa because his health keeps deteriorating... then she's also had a dream with a double death (something that has never happened to her) and I have had a few dreams myself... I don't know if I should think of the nightmares that I've been having recently as a sign that our family is about to get a lot bigger (as if it isn't big enough with 7 aunts/uncles (and their spouses), 13 cousins, and 15 2nd cousins...) or is it's stress from all the deaths surrounding us lately.... T_T

I just wish it would stop for a while so I could get some good sleep... for the short periods between all the deaths lately there are constant scares of near deaths and people going to the hospital because of accidents, diseases, operations and pet deaths... it's been ridiculous.